you don’t always see them, but you know they’re always there.”
If you know me, you know I love hosting parties: tea parties, cookie parties, pinterest parties, you name it! You would also know that I never did fit into one group of friends so I have many from all over! We don’t talk every day or even that often but when we get together, my heart is always SO filled by these solid friends of mine and the fun conversations amongst all of us doing all different things in life! It re-centers me and I got to thinking that true joy and love are similar in that there isn’t reason behind their feelings. You just feel them- and that to me is what Christmas should feel like.
Can I be honest with you? Sometimes the holidays seem a little off for me. I’ve had a few rough ones where instead of feeling joy and love I felt bitterness and exhaustion from a torn family. I could easily blame it on what I call pressure to perform. In my case it was trying to spread my time evenly amongst all my family and make sure I had all my siblings organized too. But you know what? I’m older now and its up to me to cultivate that joy and love that I desire to feel.
It’s still a work in progress and someone I know said something that got me thinking…he said “I just stopped putting expectations on the holidays.” At first I thought it was sort of a grinch thing to say, but now I get it. We work up all these ideas in our heads of what Christmas should look like or how people should make us feel. In the end we often end up robbing ourselves of genuine love and joy because we’re not only making ourselves miserable but we’re not fulfilling others either. Instead we should just BE- surround ourselves with people we love because we want to, not because we have to or because its tradition.
I don’t think there’s such a thing as a perfect Christmas because Christmas involves many people and everyone has their different ideas of a perfect Christmas. So I will choose to be responsible for cultivating my own joy and love and reciprocating that to the people around me. Not through gifts or traditions, through just being present in each moment.
MERRY CHRISTMAS to you all! I hope you find joy, love, peace, and health this holiday season!!!