Today I’d like to be very raw with you about how beautifully painful it is to be in my 20’s figuring out life. If asked what my spirit animal is, I’d say for sure Dori from Finding Nemo. You see I have about a million thoughts going through my head at all times, about my career, my dream life, my diet, food that inspires me, where I might live, and how I will find that perfect person for me just to name a few. It feels like all these thoughts get me a little off course and I find myself often asking “can somebody please give me directions?”
One person I reach out to is my dad. Recently I packed up my mid-size SUV and drove myself all the way from Montana to Texas. I’ve traveled the world by myself, but somehow this felt like the biggest thing I’ve ever done. I moved having no job and no prior connections but trusting that somehow the Lord had something in mind for me. So far it has been nothing but a great experience and in just a months time I have learned probably more about life and adulthood than my whole life. I am thankful to have my dad and step-mom around fostering an environment for me that allows me to dream and talk through my struggles. They help me realize that it is OK to not have it all figured out but it is important to dream, and although that dream may change, I am never going to get anywhere if I don’t start putting one foot in front of the other.
You see friends, I have perfectionist tendencies, maybe you do too. My first instinct is to think that I have to have it all figured out and have this grand plan before I have something to offer. But the reality I constantly remind myself is I am enough with the skills I possess right now to help others and having life all planned out is probably only going to leave me more disappointed in myself. Remember at the end of Nemo when Dori remembers the address? That’s me; that’s us! You see we have the address inside of us already to accomplish our dreams, it’s just a matter of tapping into our own intuition. While it is wise to reach out to others for advice, its important to remember nobody knows us better than ourselves. So for now, I’m just going to keep swimming, swimming, swimming…. and you should too.
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